Hi everybody;-) It's blog-o-rama time! lol It's been kind of weird these last couple of weeks soo THATS WHAT THE BLOG IS ABOUT! of course lol
One of the things that I've always known and MOST of the time can do is - MAKE A PLAN! Now, of course, I'm not the only variable in my plans and THAT is occasionally the problem! lol The past 2 weeks luckily have NOT been thrown out of whack by anyone in particular and more importantly- nothing intentional!!
Tonight I'm sitting in my livingroom, no wait, I'm pacing through my sewing room, no wait, I'm walking my dog, no wait, I'm starting to clean the... no wait! What I'm ACTUALLY doing is trying to make peace with the fact that on my new life path I am ALWAYS fluctuating between TOO MUCH FREE TIME and being completely FRAZZLED with TOO much to do!!!
At first I really didn't see how this would have ANYTHING to do with my blog topics. I figured its just the weird way I roll. ;-) But then I realized anyone out there that is contemplating changing course and going from career path to life path would probably encounter this same situation!
For YEARS on my career path my work time was very defined and while it still had a lot of variable during the day; when it was over each night, it was over. I did still did things like teach classes, and write employee manuals and have meetings but it was generally all still in the same mind set.
So now I find myself in the (what most people,including my former self would call enviable) position of having a shitload of unstructured, self managed time!!
Now I already talked about how to FIND time to start making something happen in the 168 hrs we all have each week. THIS is about the self focus of using my time wisely when I have MORE of it than EVER before!!Its also about KEEPING YOUR HEAD IN THE GAME, for lack of a better term! lol
I have ALWAYS worked on straight commission. I CLEARLY get the idea of no work/no pay! I sorta got the concept of what I call "investment time"; prep-work, planning, training etc.
WHAT DO YOU DO when your primary paying job (hairstylist) is SLOW!? I'm not as busy as I used to be or I wouldn't be on this AWESOME new life path but sometimes its even SLOWER than what I can mentally handle!!!
I get SCARED!! Worrying about what I know my minimum needs to be. I suddenly have more free time than I know what to do with!! And THAT, ladies and gentleman, is where I find myself this week hahahaha!! I can't prove it but I know I'll be ok and 95% of the time I can handle it just fine!!
Exhibit A- 2 weeks ago I was at a breaking point!!! I hadn't had 2 days COMPLETELY OFF in...I can't even tell ya how long!;-) Short and erratic days just don't mentally revive me as well as straight time off. I know. boohoo. Lots of people have multiple jobs, or crazy home lives with no help or balance at all but still...
So anyway! LAST week was so slow and I was so grateful!!! Very little income but my house is finally clean and my sewing work room (clio&matty on facebook;-)) is organized and I'm well rested and I wasn't even worried!!! THIS week has ALSO been slow... I know its a cycle. If I do my monthly or annual numbers I know I'm about on track. BUT NOW I'M WIGGIN'!! NOW I'm too freaked and restless to use my time wisely and do more sewing. I did start working on our online store for clio&matty. But seriously. Collectively. I ain't done shit.
MY WHOLE POINT! FINALLY- when you are in this process of change and before, if you can, KNOW THYSELF! Know your financial minimums you must make. That is for real! lol However you'd probably be shocked to see what you can eliminate and still feel ok because you're HAPPIER!
Also, equally important, know how YOU operate. You probably know how to work under pressure or unhappily but how do you SELF MOTIVATE?! Just DON'T LET THIS BE AN EXCUSE NOT TO FIND A WAY TO ENJOY YOUR DREAM!
Maybe it's realizing you would function best if you made time for a fulfilling HOBBY. Or maybe you are an all or nothing kind of person. KNOW YOURSELF BUT PUSH YOURSELF!!.
If you keep doing things the same way you WILL keep getting the same results (at best!)
BEING BRAVE ISN'T THE SAME AS BEING CRAZY! hahaha
*** totally unrelated funny story***
I do the dumbest/goofiest shit ALL the TIME! I'm usually by myself so you would think- OH COOL nobody saw that! Oh HELL NO! The first thing I do is tell on myself!! I've almost never had anything happen that was so horrifying that I COULD'T tell. I mean there's a small window of TMI but other than that... Ill let you decide if this story has gone over that line lol
In the mid '90s I saved up and went on my DREAM trip to Ireland. All by myself!! It was FREAKIN AWESOME!! 10 days with a rental car and a minor itinerary. My rhythm was to decide what town I wanted to end up in each night and see things along the way. AMAZING (in case I haven't made that clear lol) Each evening I would check into a B&B and walk over to a pub for dinner and Guinness and sometimes music and conversation. ONE NIGHT I kinda forgot that my B&B was farther away than usual and I kinda had more beers than usual and I kinda, REALLY needed to pee. So I sat down on a little stone bridge to collect myself and look around for nature coverage lol While in my planning stage... I FREAKIN peed my pants!!! International pant pissing incident!!! I wasn't drunk enough to not care but I was still a half mile from the B&B! Thank God I had a jacket to tie around my waist!
Keep Calm and Carry On!! lol
ps Yes, I did also take a nature pee beside a prehistoric burial site. DAMMIT. Not nearly enough public toilets!!
MORAL OF THE STORY- travel off season like I did. WAY less witnesses hahahaha;-)
